Someone once told me that catalyst bring change. Sometimes I really hate that word. Hate it with a passion and other times, I love it, especially when it works to my advantage. Change is a verb it usually signifies an action and signals that something is going to happen not necessarily negative but something…
At age eleven, my dad, who was an alcoholic, took his own life by means of an overdose of drugs change came. My mom was no longer scared that he was going to come home and kill us all and she, at the same time…change happened.
At age sixteen, I looked for comfort outside of my very dysfunctional home, and found myself pregnant…change happened.
At age twenty-one, I found myself basically raising two small children, while I attending university….change happened.
At age twenty-seven, I found myself wanted to commit suicide, as I looked into the mirror and could not see my image from my waste up. Speaking with God, I cried my heart out and told Him that I felt nothing….He told me that I was beautiful and that He loved me…changed happened…no one had ever told me that they had ever loved me before! I had a purpose.
At age twenty-seven, I joined a group that helped me to realize that I had the right to make choices…I didn’t know that I was allowed to make choices before. I thought that I had to be subservient…change happened…life got better one day at a time!
After twenty-two years of marriage, in which I had been mentally, sexually, and physically abused, I was one day released and change happened and it felt good.
At forty-one years of age, God brought renewed joy and love into my heart with a new husband and several grandchildren…change was good.
At fifty my beloved husband went to be with the Lord but I knew by the smile and the glow on his face that there is only once place that my darling could be…with the Lord Almighty….awe, change spoke of God’s magnificent promises but left me alone. Awe…change…
At fifty, I have my Lord, my children and my grandchildren and my friends…I have it all, I may not like to accept all of the computer technology or the changes that take place in my everyday life but I know that if I trust in God, it will all work o
“Cast all your anxieties on Him,
For He cares about you.
1 Peter 5:7
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You are awesome dear one, thanks for sharing.